My First Time.

I'm not gonna lie - this is my first time. I'm scared pooless. This isn't my first, but it's my first time. What's in a first time around the merry go around anyway? Is it that important? I'm going to get lubrication just in case.

I'm putting myself out there. I've extended the fickle hand of courtesy and have gotten a thus far well received response. Some fell asleep and some have even vomited all over me but I know how to relax someone into enjoying the experience. It's going to be memorable.

I normally have people do it to me but this is me on top, doing the whole lot of it. I don't really know what I have to do. I've had four years experience. I've watched, been there and critiqued loads. It can go well sometimes, but sometimes not.

I don't want a "he wasn't that great at it - it was pretty small to be honest' response. I talk myself up too often that it could be terrible for me. Well, whatever, I'm leaving in a few weeks so what if my first proper time goes terrible.

Lubrication is the key.

Christ, I hope people come to my party.